Letter to you, all my lovers.

       I’ve lied to you all, my lovers. I’ve misguided you with  my intentions, not with my desires.

      I never told you: we are somehow alike, I never forget any lover and I can’t let go of anyone and that’s not fair! They are captured in that past.

Everytime, no matter how long it’s been, I  just bring them back with that half opened  eyes, with a soft battle of eyelashes,  with that  silly smile in  the corner of my mouth.

   I will always have them there, they will always be mine. When I’m around, I make them feel the unfinished  “one”.

      Yes, I’ve lied to them like I’ve lied to you…My intentions were to be “one full”, not a selfish “me”. That’s why you and them will always want me!

It was all a big half: half of my cruelty, my emotions, my body, half of my mind, not even a true poker face…

I wanted to be “one”,  but it was just “the selfish”, the ego, and also the self defense wall!

You, all of you, didn’t deserve  me!!!

   

      I’m sorry for you, all my lovers, my everlasting never happening, half hearts…

I didn’t give you free love, I cherish  you  all, but I didn’t love you!

      One of these days I will release you, I’ll find my other part, that half soul of mine and I’ll be his for no reason. I’ll tell him everything and anything …I’ll hold to that like an obsessed mind.

     One of these days, I’ll show him the bitch, the sister, the housewife, the child, the crazy and everything I haven’t discovered yet!

        One of these days, I will be yours without knowing,

                   Those days, the cage will be broken and you, my half hearts, will be set free!